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Road Leading Nowhere
05:27
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standing with trees
while the wild winds blow
keeping to center
I let thinking go
back in touch with my compass
that I left in the grass
when I foolishly followed
thoughts of future and past
in this transformation
of a lonely heart
find a different reason
to make a new start
chasing after the pleasure
while avoiding the pain
is a plan that collapses
again and again
running through gravel
over a wooden bridge
with the breath as my mantra
and letting go of religion
against the grain
but in touch with the flow
looking for confidence
that was lost long ago
I’ve been burned by desire
couldn’t see the harm
never saw a good reason
to sound the inner alarm
when the future comes crashing
and we’re unprepared
find security crumbling
a road leading nowhere
what does it mean
to be a lonely son
days without speaking
to anyone
just keep on moving
guitar by my side
as inspiration slips by
now the fires are burning
everything that we see
and we can’t seem to
break ourselves free
making time for each other
not easily done
but this life
is a short setting sun
all the roads that we travel
many holes in the road
set to wreck our alignment
until we don’t know which way to go
chasing after the pleasure
while avoiding the pain
is a plan that collapses
again and again
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2. |
It's Like This
03:48
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I saw a dead bird
lying in the street today
and as I walked on
I sent it lovingkindness
that it would always encounter
wisdom in future lives
find a happier place
fly to the greatest of heights
because it’s nature’s way
that has saved me thus far
it has revealed to me
the tree in this guitar
walking down the sidewalk
giant houses I have never lived in
a small empty apartment
feels like this
people die everyday over financial strain
they feel so disconnected
can’t take any more of the pain
I have compassion for myself
and so much more for anyone else
who has struggled to make things right
or contemplated ending their lives
if thinking mind
doesn’t drive us to extinction
faster better
and more convenient
as the ship goes down
will we still have barbarians
beating on each other
for entertainment?
at the end of this life
I’ll be glad that I took the time
to practice self-care
sitting and walking with awareness of mind
the play must unfold
in its own time and way
no one is controlling it all
we’re just a tiny blue dot in space
oh the problems of the world
they are like this
there is nothing in this life
that isn’t like this
oh it’s all like this
it’s all like this
good or bad
it’s all like this
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3. |
Ajahn Chah
07:08
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how I love to hear
the words of Ajahn Chah
he came to serve
as a living Buddha
though I strive to live high ideals
I could not do it with such grace
yet I am not discouraged
for he showed the way
You may think a self resides in you
look deeper and you’ll see that it’s not true
not everything has meaning and that’s okay
see life as it is not in a personal way
don’t always believe
everything that you think
for nothing is really certain
things can change in a wink
we don’t have to be monks
to learn how to see
we don’t have to wear robes dyed in wood
from a jackfruit tree
darkness and clouds cover the minds of us
let go of anger and worry
see the mind as luminous
we can do the work of planting seeds
but it's no good to try and force the growth of trees
if we do the work properly we’ll find that’s all we need
let go of belief in a self that can be saved
be tranquil inside
unmoved by praises or blame
this is not a song of worship
for that’s not what he sought
but a thankful expression for the truths that he taught
not everything has meaning and that’s okay
see life as it is not in a personal way
and the fetters of doubt will gently fall away
on some disenchanted evening
he would talk until the morning
and the tears were falling
when he would meditate in the rain
soaking wet with tears until he exhausted all the pain
oh this path has no boundaries and all lying has ceased
there is nothing to grab hold of
only thoughts to release
if we see through our conditioning to the reality beneath
feel the anger dissolving
in the forest
in the forest of trees
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4. |
Mixed Karma
05:39
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there is a lag time
between actions and effects
we think they got away with murder
but we don’t see what happens next
if I have done wrong
in this life
or maybe even a past one
start to see why things haven’t gone so right
if I am envious of others
I can only lose influence
if I think they don’t deserve
the success they found
I’m blind to past causes…past causes
everyone wants happiness
and everyone deserves it
but the causes and conditions weren’t there
for the fruit to ripen
may we break through the boundaries
defining self against other
defining self against other
no mind state is permanent
nor is heaven or hell
we can always change
pick ourselves up from where we fell
we may have lost more blood
than the greatest of oceans
having lived countless lives
without a sense of wholesome devotion…devotion
karma doesn’t care
if you believe in it or not
we are owners of our actions
'cause that’s all we've got
may we realize
through direct knowledge
the ending of all karma
the ending of all karma
what you did or didn’t do in a past life
it doesn’t matter now
are you creating good karma?
or are you creating more bad karma?
I am just a wanderer carrying mixed karma…mixed karma
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5. |
Socrates
04:55
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on our way to a party
when he spontaneously froze
into a mystical trance
impervious to his surroundings
Socrates stood as the sun went down
unmoving he would not respond to touch or sound
his aching feet did not matter
all problems in his mind had scattered
Socrates stood
Socrates stood
better not try and bother him
best to leave him alone
it’s just how he retires from the world
every now and then
under Athenian stars
called to him from afar
standing on a neighbor’s porch with an empty mind
lost in deep meditation that night
his pale head glimmered in the moonlight
Socrates stood
Socrates stood
a crowd of people gathered by
to share in the quietude of his life
his body disappeared from his mind
time stood still
constellations floated by
waiting for the sun to rise
no more war in his mind
no more war in his mind
as the birds sang
the sun arose and he broke his trance
finally moved his hands in prayer and he gave thanks
to the sun and went on his way
as if nothing special had happened on that day
all I know is that I know nothing
all I know is that I know nothing
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I struggled with depression and anxiety
for too much of my adult life
let those feelings surface
put them under the spotlight
some people have it easier
with no roadblocks in their way
Well I guess you call that karma
mine is gastrointestinal pain
now there’s no looking back
just trying not to fall off the main track
stop fighting and resisting life as it is
until the obstacles become the path
I encounter difficult people
more often than I would like
afraid to deal with themselves
but on your faults they love to shine the light
for any impediment in the way
the mind must convert it
into a vehicle for growing
no longer stopping you from living
these stumbling blocks can change
but our perceptions lead us the wrong way
we can’t know everything beyond the present
or describe the indescribable with words
because gaining is losing
all the comforts that we cling to each day
right view becomes wrong view
let those views pass right on through and fall away
you’re not gonna change anyone’s mind
so stop arguing everything will be fine
everything will be just fine
we’ll find our true homes
are not the bodies in which we roam
it’s just what we experience life through
what is there to prove
if there’s nothing left to do?
now there’s no looking back
just trying not to fall off the main track
stop fighting and resisting life as it is
until the obstacles become the path
obstacles become the path
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7. |
For The Angels
04:31
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you may say i’m nobody
no purpose do I serve
of no real importance
songs not worthy to be heard
but I know there are some
whose eyes are not covered with dust
they listen and understand
through empathy and through trust
like heavenly celestial beings
a heart made light
when it's cold and it snows through the night
I sing one for the angels
when there’s no one to listen in sight
I don’t need anyone to hear
this song because i’ve already disappeared
so you say i’m dreaming
but i’m waking up instead
from the endless cycle
circling through life and through death
if nobody is playing
then nobody is listening
some preach from high horses
but can’t accept a simple teaching
some will never hear or understand
but I am not forsaken
for I am a peaceful one
I play one for the angels
as they watch over the setting sun
I don’t have a need to be heard
because compassion can heal without any words
liberation in this life
the end of longing and sorrow’s rebirth
when I see their hidden wings
I sing one for the angels
the angels here on earth
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8. |
Monastery
05:45
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took a road trip to New Hampshire
driving winding roads through the woods
four nights in a monastery
took the eight precepts
found a dresser and bed
set the alarm and laid down my head
and though I helped wash dishes
and vacuumed in the hall
my fondest memory of all
was sitting together in the quiet
it felt natural and calm
just watching the breath go in and out
but not attached to anything
sitting still like statues now
thoughts rise and fall
in the dimly lit meditation hall
took pictures of the fall landscape
reflection of ochre leaves on the pond
stones assembled into short walls
stood and listened to rain
I wandered acres of hills
and though I cleaned up the bathroom
and swept the dirty tarps
one of my favorite parts
was sharing meals together
breakfast in a red skied dawn
watching the breath go in and out
but not attached to anything
sitting still like statues now
thoughts rise and fall
in the dimly lit meditation hall
walking through the field at dusk
a sense of sadness arose
surrounded by a dark silhouette of trees
under a blanket of cloud a faint white light
not feeling fit to ordain
but maybe in the next life
watching the breath go in and out
this is how it feels to be alive
beneath an expansive sky
knowing this body is not mine
and the suffering that arises also declines
knowing that all memories
are impermanent
and knowing that all suffering
is impermanent
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9. |
Rogue Planet
04:51
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rogue planet
that is drifting through dark space
ejected from its orbit
it has quickly lost its place
wandering through endless night
like a nomad in the desert
tracing a wayward path through the galaxy
searching for a beacon light
just an isolated planet
passing by the distant stars
not connected to anything
just radiating from afar
from afar
rogue planet
a long long way from home
mother sun just a speck of light now
no direction as it roams
and its temperature is cold
but its heart is beating warm
just one of a billion orphans
with no memory of how it formed
will it be pulled by gravity
forces far beyond its control?
will it revolve around a new sun
or disappear into a deep black hole?
deep black hole
will the planet fly by again
and cause a state of warning?
will it see the sun rise again
in the early morning?
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10. |
Three Characteristics
05:26
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in an unstable world
full of treachery and deceit
people don’t seem to give a damn about anything
because they don’t care
don’t see the value in the spiritual life
when the heart is obscured
and covered over with leaves
it’s no wonder that we can’t feel anything
i’m better off not knowing
not seeing what can’t be unseen
when this body finally dies
the world will still turn
when this body breaks up
I hope there’s no return
for one who has known mental suffering
I have aspired to this noble way of developing
when doubters don’t support the vision
the vision withers and fails
nobody's better off for it
mistaking anguish for happiness
do you think you can endure it?
we can take more than we think we can
but if I must return
may I not make the same mistakes
letting go of insecurity
following the path that wisdom makes
to see that nothing arises all by itself
it’s uncertain and this body is not self
when a fire burns out
we don’t know where it went
direction no longer applies
to the state that the fire is in
it’s just the cessation
of affliction and misery
rebirth comes to an end
carry on through the hard times
there will always be a new song to write
a mind like a hurricane
spinning dangerous and fast
collides with the land of truth
and its form breaks down
into beautiful showers
a mind filled with misguided views
is a danger to itself and others too
when this body finally dies
the world will still turn
when this body breaks up
I hope there’s no return
for one who has known mental suffering
I have aspired to this noble way of developing
but if I must return
may I not make the same mistakes
letting go of insecurity
following the path that wisdom makes
to see that nothing arises all by itself
it’s uncertain and this body is not self
it’s all uncertain
unsatisfactory
but it’s not self
no it’s not self
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Andy Vought Harrisonburg, Virginia
Andy Vought is a Singer-Songwriter from Norfolk, Virginia. He writes original songs, plays all of the instruments (except
drums) on his albums, and is self-produced.
In 2021, Andy moved to Harrisonburg, Virginia. He is excited about his latest offering which will be a new album in 2022.
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